the real cuomova

goodbye old. hello new.
I’ll stop writing for this blog full stop

its’ contents are fukin obsolete. I’m not going to update this blog anymore. I’m not a blog fag anyway.
so.
goodbye.

I just don’t take bad things to my heart that easily. so if somebody tries to bring me down, just go ahead baby. I’d love to see who’s so childish in this kind of situation. oh, maybe that someone is just soooooooooooo last decade that she/he still "rungsing" about that old-old matter..

just random thought. skip it people LOL

ihwa puta!! hell yess.. I’m so freakin bored and dying to have a week off..

I’m dying to take some photographs *I don’t have an SLR (sobs)*.. I’m dying to ride a bicycle.. I need to have fun!!! EXPIES squad please kill me with the best ‘fun’ you can serve!! ndutquwh please lets go hunting photograph with your fancy nikon camera till I drop.. ohh holy crap I’m so overbored.. haha.. I’m so tired of being able to sleep at 4 am and wake up at 1 pm.. and geez, I have lectures in the morning!!

yeah. whatthefuckever.

anyway I guess I’m not writing on this blog anymore.. I don’t find it cool enough to have 2blogs.. so I prefer writing on www.cuomova.blogspot.com instead..

long time not writing blog here.. saya lagi emosii jiwa raga.. kmaren out of nowhere temen gua bilang dy ada kelebihan satu tiket buat nonton kings of convenience.. gua yg notabene salah satu korban kehabisan tiked langsung hajar donk.. tapi oh tapiiii I just didn’t get it why my parents wouldn’t let me watch em!! without any consideration or even rational excuses!! fukit!! kesel yg teramat sangat.. oh well.. yaudahlah udah lewat.. males ngebahasnya..

besok gua mulai midterm test dan gua belom siap apa2.. dammit.. wtf is goin on with me?! kaenya gua lagi butuh vacation or something cuz gua udah terlalu banyak skip gara2 penat sama idup gua.. kesannya kae ga mensyukuri apa yg udah gua dapet yahh.. tau ahh.. bad mood attacks!!

this is life. all you can do is just take it, face it, live it. becuz you can’t avoid your own destiny. and you cannot re-write the story you’ve been destined to play. it’s all God’s game. don’t fuss way too much with your real life. take it just as it is. trust me, what you’ve got now, and what you haven’t got or even didn’t get at all, is definitely the best for you. even when you got an accident, God never meant to do you harm.

oh WTF am I talkin about? how come I could preach y’all with these words of wisdom, whereas I myself have never been this wise when I got problem. ahaha. well actually, I dunno whom this post supposed to be dedicated to..

you don’t have to know what you’re gonna do now or tommorow or next week, next month and the list goes on. all you can do is just follow where life takes you..

next topic: photo exhibition!! ahahahaha..

ini sepupu gua.. sabi gak?? model wannabe..

there must be something WRONG in this whole world, esp jakarta!! yea, what I’m talking about right now is teenage life in the city!! yesterday I went to plaza semanggi with Nia, Penny, Jengqy, and Acin and I found at least 2 hot-couple walking in the plaza and being such a Public Display of Affection. okay, I think I must mention how HOT they were..

*I guess if you haven’t been in plaza semanggi, it’d be hard to figure out my story*

escalator. yep. we all know how ‘open’ the escalators in plaza semanggi. and you know what, when I and my friends were on the escalators (we were going upstairs), we saw a couple *I saw em wearing such a skool-uniform or something* were on the opposite escalator (they were goin downstairs); first they just hugged each other damn tight but then!! they were pashing so damn hot just like there wasn’t even an ant looking at them.. spontaneously I and my friends were shouting at them; "boooo!!!" until they realized that they were being watched. they just laughed and smiled at us! damn.. that was so funny and disgusting..

another story was when I went out to citos with Audrey *she lost my moby, fuck her*.. I met her friends almost in every direction in the whole wide citos!! they were still about 12years old, yeaa type of junior-high skool student.. and they were all smoking like a pro *I mean, I used to smoke and I surely know how to smoke and they didn’t* and those ABG-couples were making out in public just as if citos was owned by their father or something!! it was so kinky for me to see since can you imagine just-graduated-elementary-student who’s still in their puberty, acted like they were all adults!! for God sake, what’s so wrong with the children and parents today??

I know I don’t have a right to prohibit someone for being such a PDA, but all I ask them to do just SEE WHERE YOU AT!! not all the people enjoy watching PDA so they must be able to locate them self; where they are and what they cannot do while being there. that is so pathetic due to the fact that it happens in Indonesia, a south-eastern country. I dunno. maybe western stuff has taken it all. and unluckily, some of indonesian people are such a norak-humankind and are shocked by such new culture and forget their own custom and personality.

nowadays bad mood takes control of me; my mind, my behaviour, my day. gua gak tau emang udah ‘penyakit’ or something, gua jadi sering ngerasa over-envious about unimportant stuff. and in the end I can only mumble of how life’s so unfair.

however, it really is. we all know how a person could never know how it feels to be miserable when in other place there’s a person has never known what happiness is. rather overrated, indeed.  but that’s how LIFE really is!!

there’s a saying: life’s a wheel.

yea yea, sure. well may be I am just too fucked-up at the moment that I insist that life’s unfair. tapi tetep gua gak boleh nyalahin Tuhan dan bilang God’s unfair. gila kali. Tuhan tuh adil banged, cuma dia menciptakan hidup yang rada2 gak adil plus pembagian hoki yang gak adil buat ngetes umatnya bisa survive apa nggak. but soon or later we’ll get the pure justice, yea eventually!! d’ya ring the bell?? yup, di akherat.

unluckily human was born with insatiable desire that never ends. so it all depends to each human-being. conclusion: be thankful of what you’ve gotten–that’s the best for ya.

gua gak mau berfilsafat di sini. kuliah "filsafat umum dan logika" gua aja payahhh.

two days ago I wrote a post for this blog. tapi bln selese gua nulis, tiba2 page-nya berubahh gara2 gua klik link gitu.. tae ahhh.. padahal gua udah panjang2 nulis tuhh..

back on track..  liat dehh foto gua.. emang gua kae orang cina yaa?? ga bermaksud buat rasist neghh.. cuma gua suka cape aja jelasin ke orang2 kalo gua sama sekali punya darah cina.. bokap asli betawi dari segala turunan *maxud lo??8, nyokap sih jawa trus ada darah jepang dari eyangnya yang notabene buyut gua aja gitu yaaa.. apa gak jauh tuhh??

I have loads of funny story about my fake chinese look *knapa gua bilang fake? cuz I am not chinese*

jadi gini, waktu itu gua lagi nemenin laki gua beli pulsa, trus kebetulan yang jual nenek2 chinese gitu.. trus pas gua lagi liat2 perdana *nomornya bagus2 nyedd* tiba2 dia bilang gini ke gua..

penjual pulsa: dek, adek chinese kan?

gua: *geleng2 sambil senyum*

penjual pulsa: ahh masa sih? yg bener!

gua: *geleng2 lagi*

penjual pulsa: adek orang mana? menado bukan?

gua: betawi

penjual pulsa: nahhh. betawi kan banyak yg chinese. pasti deh adek ada darah chinese-nya.

gua: *dalem ati: wew. ngotot amad negh orang*

penjual pulsa: adek bisa bahasa hokkien?

gua: *dalem ati: busyeddd apaan lagi noghh??*

trus pas jaman2 puasa kemaren, gua sering banged ditawarin makanan, diajak makan.. halahhh pada gak percaya aja gitu yaaa gua muslim *hehh mulae2 SARA neghhh* cape dehhh.. kocak juga sih kalo dipikir2.. dapet gen darimana negh gua mpe sipit bgini.. padahal kakak2 gua indonesia abis gitu mukanya.. *mikir*

oija, bad newz.. kabel telp yg menghubungkan telp port ke modem gua digunting aja dehhh ma bokap.. ahah lucu sekali bokap yg emosi langsung mengambil keputusan buat ngegunting tuh kabel yg notabene bikin telp di ruang tengah mati.. jadi skarang gua rada susah buat stay connect to the internet.. huh..

I’m so fuked up. I’ve always been.

I dunno wut’s gud fo me, and wut’s worse I dun even know wut’s bad fo me. I always be the one who’s caught in the middle with nuthin to do or wut to decide. I’m tired of livin dis fukin life. I’m sick of fightin with my hubby since I’ve always been the first one who started it all.

dis fukin thing’s gotta stop!!!

my fukin life’s a livin mess. who the fuk wanna live the hell like dis?! but I’ve always been the one who’s willing to live such fukin life. haha wut a fukin pathetic chick I am.

intoxicated? perhaps. I’ve always been.

Look! dis pic wuz taken while I wuz havin my fukin bad day. wut a fake smile of mine..

huhuhuhu.. I came across this philosophy of lurve while I was browsing, looking for a couple of essay about "Butterfly in My Stomach" tapi gua gak nemu yang bener2 gua cari.. oh well..

katanya sihh, artinya butterfly in my stomach ntuuu perasaan mules2 kecil yang tiba2 nyerang kita pas kita mau atau sedang ketemu or ngobrol or bersama orang yang kita suka.. bener gak tuh definisinya?? gua gak ngarti dahhh.. pokonya kae nervous2 gitu lahhh.. I dunno for sure.. makanya gua nyari ada gak negh essayna yang jelasin secara ilmiah *beudeeeh* arti sebenernya dari ungkapan ntuhh..

tau ahhh..

uheheheh.. dat was at aboy’s bday *surprise* bash.. I was the only chick around the lads ehehehe.. it was fun although I ended up quarellin with my hubby.. I’m really sorry, hubby.. sorry sorry sorry sorry..